I'm Letting You Go

Damn I'm Having This Splitting Headache. Seriously, it feels like something is smashing up my brain. i nid somebody to massage me man. ANYBODY WILLING TO MASSAGE MY HEAD (: Just sms me (: hahaha. i dunno why i suddenly have this headache. right after sch. WHEN I SAW HER! i suddenly have this freaking headache. den when she starts talking to me my headache turned into a mini earthquake in my head.

I CAN'T THINK WITH THIS HEADACHE MAN. i think its bcos im having high hopes bout her, but th truth is we will nv end up tgt, its just one of the many fantasies i have. i keep on telling myself, shes jus a crush. shes jus a crush. shes jus a crush, i alr made a promise to myself tht i won't layan all this crushes animore. but i can't help but feel that shes something more den dat. shes like th oni one i could trust, shes th onli one i can talk to seriously bout all my problems. she would always make me smile with all th silly things she does and we will always end up laughing like mad whenever we start toking. whenever i talk to you, i feel like we are th onli two people in a crowded room. your dat special to me.

i would always try to help you with all your problems, and would try to make you smile however i can. it hurts me when i see you sad and depress. i cant stand to see you unhappy. making you smile is like an addiction to me. i'm seriously trying to avoid you this pass few days, but you keep turning up everywhere i go. even if i try to ignore you, you would always make that face of yours that would always make me talk to you. your my ecstacy and if i have th choice. i will nv let you go. this is th only way i kno dat will set my life straight again. a life without any crushes, problems or wdv.

you told me bout your feelings and crush. but seriously, i dont give a damn. how can't you not see that i have feelings for you. everytime you tell me about all those things. my heart jus sinks. but i will still mantain a smile on my face, and go with th flow. i will nv get angry at you cos you have feelings for him/her/it, im jus not that kind of guy. i really can't blame you cos your not th one to blame. everything is predetermined, i cant go against god. if im suppose to forget bout you, well, its jus fate. i can't go against fate. its like going against what you bliv in life. it will take a devine intervention for me to stop thinking bout you. dats wad i'm hoping for, a freaking miracle. i kno i should'nt b like this. but i can't help it.

i dunno what i will do without you. i won't have a listening ear to all my problems animore, i won't have anibodie to make me laugh lik mad animore, or make me act lik an idiot infront of people. my life will b so dull without you. well, i jus nid to move on with life. forget about you and jus MOVE ON. but moving on is'nt dat easy. i had th same old dream bout you every night, and it will always end up th same old way. thats jus irritating. thats jus makes it harder to forget bout you. i kno even if we end up being tgt. there will b a lot of complications. i don't wann to b th one who will ruin your future. i would distract you from your studies and i seriously don't wann to b th person responsible for that and i beg you don't hang out with all th people who will influence you to do all those bad things. they are a bad influence, i should kno cos they are my close frens. even i kno that they are a bad influence. but i kno how to control myself. i don't wann you to b so influence by them dat you would not even care bout ur studies animore. i really care bout you, and i dunn wann you to follo th wrong path. i wann to see you excel in your studies and b worry free. so i beg you to stop hanging out with them, i kno im being a hypocrite, cos i hang out with them everyday. but you should kno betta, your in a good class and y0ur surrounded by good ppl.
i can control myself, and i won't get easily influence by them, i do th influencing and you should too. i don't wann to see all your hard work going down th drain jus bcos you got too influence by them.

i will try to stop all th nonsense im doing and seriously concentrate on my studies for you. i will try to b a betta person for you. i don't care if ppl are judging me or wdv. i don't care bout their judgement, th oni judgement i care bout is yours. i will do anything that would make you happy. anything in my power. i will turn over a new leaf and hope dat you will do th same, not for me. but for your own good. i kno i should'nt b lecturing you bout this but seriously, you changed. youre not th girl i know animore. i kno i was'nt close to you for th pass 2 years. but im close enough to you this year to kno that you've changed. your a totally different person. im not th onli person dat have notice this. i jus hope you will be th same old ______ that i kno. th silly girl dat would put a smile on my face whenever im sad, th girl who would listen to all my problems and help me solve them. the girl who would b a retard ass and don't care bout what ppl think bout you. i really admire your I-DON'T-CARE-WHAT-PEOPLE-THINK attitude. and i'm following in your footsteps.

i kno some people don't like me and are judging me even though they seriously don't kno me that well. who th hell give them th rights to judge me. i am who i am. i can't trust alot of people now. i've been backstabbed once and i seriously not gonna let that happen again, i've been called alot of names, but i dunn care, i learned that its betta to have one or two good friends rather then having alot of friends. and i hope you would b one of my good friends dat will b thr for me whenever i nid help.

even if i won't talk to you as much as we used to, i will still care for you. i will b th one who set your mind straight and urge you to study and b a betta person. i will b thr urging you to do your best in anything you do. i will b thr for you through thick and thin. and i really will try my best to practice what i preach. i don't wanna b a hypocrite and i'm doing all this bcos i really really care for you. i jus want you to kno (if you are reading this) that this is my last goodbye.

I'm letting you go cause i really love you ©

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