The Ayam In Me

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{Life Through My Eyes}

When You Walk Through The Door It Was Clear To Me, You're The One They Adore, Who They Came To See, You're A ROCKSTAR! Everybody Wants You, Player, Who Can Really Blame You, We're The Ones Who Made You ©

HeyHeyHey my name is ErwinAyam, I Am 14 turning 15 on 26 May 2009, Currently studying at th school located at 6 Bedok South Rd, im sec 3 now,doing well in sec 3, loving my class, my dream for this year is to be THE CLASS CHAIRMAN (: i love to crap alot, like what im doing here, i love anybody hu craps with me,I LOVE MUSIC but HATE PEGIONS and i wanna be a rockstar ONE DAY (: Mayb making a band soon (: its gonna rock mannn. wahahahah.
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7:22 AM Friday, April 24, 2009

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argh, i cant bliv it man, i cant do anything. i cant even help her when shes sad and nid help. she was pouring out all her feelings to me, but what did i do. i changed th subject. THATS TH DUMBEST THING I EVER DID. i should have tried to resolve her problems for her, and why did'nt I? cos i was scared, scared dat i will fall in love with her again, scared dat it will b a one sided love affair again. im jus a fucking scaredy cat. i cant even b a real man and help a girl in nid. a girl who is so innocently having troubles and needed my help. i jus did'nt care bout her troubles, what kind of man am i? i could have skip that optional A Maths remedial and gone and accompany her, listening to all her problems and comforting her. i kno its hard for her to even tell me about her problems. but i choose to ignore her, i choose to leave her all alone, i choose to take th easy way out. i should have been a real man. what kind of guy am i? i cant even help a girl, let alone my whole class, and i sae i want t b th next class chairman, sheesh, i cant even govern myself, i should give up trying to b th angklung prezzie, i kno i dunn deserve that position, you kno what, i dunn deserve to b anything in life. she took th time to listen to all my problems and even help me to resolve it, gave me wonderful advice and comfort me about it. but i did'nt do th same for her. WHAT KIND OF FREN AM I? i jus get into trouble, one after another. and shes thr to support my every decision. she will always take my side, and th only time she nid my help, whr was i? i was busy with other stuff, she looked damnn depress and i knew she was depress BUT I DID'NT HELP HER. im so stupid, im so stupid, im so stupid.

YOU PROMISE YOURSELF THAT YOU WILL HELP HER IN EVERYTHING, YOU WILL WATCH OVER HER AND SETTLE ANYTHING FOR HER AND WHY DID'NT YOU DO IT? WHY ARE YOU SCARED OF HER SO MUCH, CAN YOU EVEN PUT YOUR FEELINGS ASIDE FOR AWHILE AND JUS TALK TO HER, AS A FREN, A BUDDY, A KAWAN? ERWIN. YOUR FREAKING HOPELESS ©